Enraptured by glory.
Captured by Love.
Embraced by peace.
Covered by blood.
Enticed by nothing.
Confused by none.
Never alone.
I stand.
I've come to a place with God right now where I am honestly pretty happy. I'm growing and totally on fire. I'm spending time with Him in worship, in prayer, and I'm studying the Word consistently. I can hear His voice again and I love it. The girls that I'm mentoring are growing, I'm pretty settled in my new home, and I'm looking for a job.
Actually, I am working for ACN and you should check out my website!!! http://vip123.acnrep.com However, I'm still looking for a 9-5 type job so I can save some extra money for school.
Back to the relationship with God thing: When it comes to guys and romantic relationships, I have reached this place where I would be happy if it ends up just being me and God and my calling for forever; it would certainly be easier than managing a household in addition to my pursuing my calling. But then if God does have someone for me, I have always been a romantic (I'd say "hopeless romantic", but nothing's really hopeless, right? :]). And I do love kids. If that's what God has in store for me, I think I want like 3 or 4. Haha, actually, not having kids would be kind of weird; but then I know I'll always have my younger siblings and whatever other little kids come into my life. I know this is an area where God gives us choices, but I also know that God has two wills: perfect and permissive. That being the case, I want to follow His perfect will as much as possible. Anyway the point is, I'm seriously ecstatic with whatever God has for me. I like a guy, I don't know if he knows it or not, but I'm happy just being really good friends. And if that's all we ever are, great! Or if something happens there at some point, great! It's in God's hands. I'm in God's hands. And I finally trust Him completely. I've learned some stuff about love in the last year though; I think the biggest lesson-the one that stuck out to me the most-was that love is a choice, not an emotion. We can choose who we love, and w e should. We can't be ruled by our emotions. My pastor preached an amazing sermon about that last week. I'll put the devotion from it up here sometime this week...but it was seriously so powerful. And convicting. I don't know about you, but I know I used to have this habit of letting my emotions lead and control me, rather than me controlling them. Now I control my emotions. I'll admit it's not always easy, and I'm not perfect, but wow. The difference it's made, that it's making. It's extraordinary.
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1 comment:
That was great, I really do understand with what you are saying, that is something that's been on my heart a lot this week. Tonigh my youth pastor made a good point, people are born with a empty feeling in their hearts. Many people will go searching their whole lives trying to find something to fulfill that void- when God created us with that because he is yearning to have a relationship with Him. I was applying that to trying to find a boyfriend, or just being content with being single and know that all I need is God. It would be great to have someone accompany me in my life and I also feel that God wouldn't place that desire for us to want to have a significant other to love. If you could put up that devotion that would be awesome! Well said though! =]
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